Hello beautiful people!
Firstly, I want to thank you for all the support you have shown me after my last blog post. Your comments and messages truly mean so much to me and have really helped me start to move forward ❤ Thank you ❤
I’ve been a little quiet since I posted my Kimberly Dress Pattern review. I’ve been struggling with a few things with my mental health and although that is not over, I am beginning to get over the slump to focus on the now.
I absolutely love Christmas and do all I can to try and find the magic that I used to feel as a child. I don’t ever come close any more, but seeing Georgia’s excitement was wonderful this year. She was an absolute trooper too! She had the chicken pox whilst we were away and was just amazing about it. I on the other hand cried. Being in the Isle of Man with my Mum, Sister and Nana was really wonderful. 4 generations together on Christmas Day was heart filling.
I am however, not a fan of new year. I find the pressure of the “New Year, New Me” and looking back over the past year, very difficult. Even though I’ve achieved some pretty cool things and done some wonderful things and made great memories; I find it hard to drown out all the rubbish that has happened too and often focus more on the disappointments and things I haven’t achieved more. Also waking up on the 1st of January doesn’t change who I was on the 31st December. If things really could change over night, well…the possibilities would be truly endless.
So that is where I’ve been, trying to claw my way out of the negativity I’ve been feeling and displeasure with myself. I feel that since Christmas is over, I’m not too sure where to go with much of anything next; but that is just something that takes time to progress and I’ll figure it out. There’s also a few big, frightening things happening in 2019 and I’m not sure how to deal with it.
Georgia turns 3 at the end of the month. I have been a stay at home Mum and spending almost every single hour of every day with her since before she was born. She has never been to nursery and I’ve never even spent a night away from her in all of that time. She is also still nursed to sleep which I have decided to stop in February.
Turning 3 and means, pre-school. More than ever I feel the pressure of the “go back to work” and “find a job” but I desperately want to be able to be there for her. Take her to School, pick her up, be with her on holiday’s etc. I think I’ll be the one suffering from the separation anxiety when it eventually comes around, but I am thinking of holding that off until September.
I am deeply unhappy with myself too. I am now the largest I have been since Georgia was born. I am an emotional eater and that means a crazy load of yo-yo fat gain and loss over the years. It’s also extremely hard for me to get out of because when I’m unhappy, I eat. I’m unhappy with how I am and where I am, so I eat and so the vicious circle goes on and on…
There’s been no miracle, only this morning I have had my “click” moment and I am determined to start changing some habits, try and look forward, not back and be a better role model for Georgia.
So where does that leave my sewing?
- When I sew for myself, I have decided I am going to make the size smaller than what I am until I’m where I want to be. This is so I have a goal of getting in to the garment that I have made.
- I want to do more sewing for others and do some “stock” sewing, see if I can create a little collection of things and perhaps do a craft stall by the end of the year.
- I’d like to sew more for Georgia, but at the moment she has so many clothes, it would be wrong to add to them.
- I’d also like to have a go at making my own patterns, but not sure how to go about that just yet – it’s a bucket list item.
- I definitely want to do more pattern reviews and perhaps even some testing, if I can.
- For the blog, I’ll continue to write and try for 1 a week and I’ll be starting up my Beginner’s Blogs again too.
For now I want to say thank you for all your wonderful support and comments in regards to my Kimberly Dress Pattern review and thank you so much for your support, likes and comments so far in everything else.
Here’s to growing with the changes in 2019. Have a good one beautiful people.
Hello beautiful people! I hope you all had a truly magical Christmas and are now looking forward to your New Year’s Celebrations and the ever approaching resolutions for 2019! The last 10 days or so have been a complete whirlwind and I’m only just getting round to writing this review. I wanted it ready for you for Friday, but life has just gotten in the way of me being able to just sit to write, so here we are.
After my last review for the Nikki Cardigan, I couldn’t help myself when Athina Kakou put out another pattern review request, this time for her very beautiful Kimberly Dress. From her sneak peak drawing of it a good few weeks ago, I thought it was a really beautiful dress and that if the chance came along, I would love to try it. I am not a wearer of dresses. I haven’t worn one since I got married, and I’ve only worn a dress on rare occasions before that. But I really wanted to make the dress for me and for Christmas.
I got the go ahead and my first thought was, “what on earth have I done?! I have a handmade Christmas list as long as my arm and now I need to make a dress too!!!” But with some organisation, the desire to make something gorgeous and a self made deadline, I got on with it.
ARGH! I’m so sorry that this is so late. I actually wrote most of this on Thursday but things have got completely out of hand on the handmade Christmas front and I’m working away like a crazy person and with a threenager it can be a little tough, but I wanted to make a blog post to follow up on last week’s post about the donation to Shelter after the bidding had finished.
Before I update you, I just want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart to those who shared, liked, commented and bid on the purse. Together, we were able to make £36 to give to Shelter in time for Christmas. This means that one family may at least, have the chance to speak face to face with an adviser to be able to find a permanent home. Anyone of us could be in that situation at any time of life and being able to help one person or family means a lot to me. Thank you.Continue reading “Thank You! Merry Christmas!!!”
Another short one this week. I’m rather down and out as I’m suffering with shingles. I’ve never had it before and I’m in a fair amount of pain and discomfort with it, as well as being really tired the last few days since the rash came out. I honestly wouldn’t wish it on anyone! I’m also completely terrified that Georgia is going to get Chicken Pox over Christmas, which would just be awful as we’re travelling to the Isle of Man this year.
I haven’t done much making and I still have loads to do. I hope to be feeling better by the end of the week so that I can just plough through all I have to do at the weekend, which brings me on to what to do if you want to give a handmade gift but haven’t the time to make it yourself.